Thursday, June 19, 2008

baby i've got to prove it

Man I love lyrics. Just read these... so relevant. "Going on" Gnarls Barkley

I’ve seen it with my own eyes
Obligated otherwise
Without the luxury of leaving
The touch and feeling of free
Is intangible technically
It’s something you’ve got to believe in

Connect the cause and effect
One foot in front of the next
This is the start of a journey.
And my mind is already gone
And the fear of the unknown
Somehow this doesn’t concern me

And you can stand right there if you want
But I’m going on
And I’m prepared to go it alone
I’m going on
To a place in the sun
That’s nice and warm
I’m going on
And I’m sure they’ll have a place for you too

Anyone that needs what they want
And doesn’t want what they need
I want nothing to do with
And to do what I want
And to do what I please
Is first of my to-do list

But every once in a while
I think about her smile
One of the few things I do miss
But baby I got to go
Baby I got to know
Baby I got to prove it

And I’ll see you when you get there
But I’m going on
And I’m prepared to go it alone
I’m going on
May my love lift you up to the place you belong
I’m going on
And I promise I’ll be waiting for you

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

this is it

So this is it. I'm really doing it. I don't know if there were any nay-sayers out there to begin with, maybe just myself. But I think it's more important to prove to myself that I can do this. I will do this. I'm doing this! Everyone asks if I'm nervous, but I'm not. I'm so excited... it's all-consuming. I occasionally get these ideas in my head and they completely absorb, but this time it's real. I don't know if I can express how important this is. It doesn't matter what happens once I'm there, it's just that fact that I'll make it. After years of saying I would, of planning, of disappointment... Christ, this is it! 14 days before I venture out from the familiar.