this is it

So this is it. I'm really doing it. I don't know if there were any nay-sayers out there to begin with, maybe just myself. But I think it's more important to prove to myself that I can do this. I will do this. I'm doing this! Everyone asks if I'm nervous, but I'm not. I'm so excited... it's all-consuming. I occasionally get these ideas in my head and they completely absorb, but this time it's real. I don't know if I can express how important this is. It doesn't matter what happens once I'm there, it's just that fact that I'll make it. After years of saying I would, of planning, of disappointment... Christ, this is it! 14 days before I venture out from the familiar.